My besties mom...

well, this about my lovely mom..for my last 6 months my life has changed, since my mom got serious illness and also my entire life was totally changed. I've lost the character of my mom in my life, my home, and everything(I really miss her bloody much, the way she laughs, force me to eat, accompany her to the hospital or looking for something new in our culinary things, love u mom..). Well, I have to replace her position tomanage the whole things in my house even manage a household thing which is i havent enough time for hanging out with some friends or relatives but sometimes if i think i could i did it too. it's difficult to face it at once but i have to passed those things. Looking at her lying down on the bed with lack of activities where she eats there, took some pills for her illness, took a bath on the bed and her whole day just lying down on there....Now, everytime i look at her I feel soo terribly hurt, sad, useless enough, because all i have to do just taking care of her i hadnt enough capability to release her from the pain. i could turned back time, I would taken my whole time for her in the past. Sometimes she called me to help her in the middle of her slept at the night and sometimes I felt a bit angry about it, so sorry mom i really didnt meant like that. Now, she often forgot the things, she forgot about time, day, date, even her age now.. So sad to knew it, huh? I have 1 brother and ! sister(she's in 8 months pragnancy)and I'm the youngest. In the weekdays I always exchange time for taking care of my mom, all i want is make my mom feels fine, as healthy as before, I believe that she's a struggle woman.. You're strong enough mom, you're an/a attractive, generous, energetic mom! She very rarely getting angry, she's a good mom and a good housewive..I miss u so,mom..Mamah, semangat terus yaa..God, may my mom could be as healthy as before, dont take away her from us, pleasee...we believe that she's gonna be cured...amiennnn!Mom, you're the best! Love u always mama......